Facing the Truth
I’d like to say that I’m an exception but I’m not. There’s no exception to science. I’ve to face the truth; my truth. I scuttle around it, try to avoid it, even though it’s always staring me in the face. I can’t even pretend that I don’t see it, I don’t hear it… it’s staring at me.
I’m hovering at about 235 lbs (I’m not certain where I am because my scale is broken). I say I need to get to 180, 150 but the fact is for me to be healthy, rather than just skimming the top of a healthy BMI, I need to lose 100 lbs.
I eat too many sweets. Just this week I had two pieces of cake on Tuesday , Wednesday 2 pieces AND three cupcakes. That’s absolutely absurd, there’s no reason for it. I need to take control. In our lives there’s so little we have control over so why do we concede control of those things which are completely in our hands?
I’ve constant headaches now, one every day. I get fatigued so easily; I’ve been taking a 3-4 hour nap most afternoons, sleeping 6 hours a night. There’s no denying this could be cured with healthy food and exercise — we all know the affects of healthy living.
I’ve done it before, I CAN do it again. This is my reality and although it is unfair in comparison to other peoples realities, it is mine and it is the only one I’m given so I need to make the best of it. Why wouldn’t I want to be at my best, thin, healthy, beautiful? I’m done with my ridiculousness; this is my truth. And I’m accepting it and making the best of it.
wow, honey you sound EXACTLY like me. Like I am in the exact same spot down to the head aches!!! Crazy, thats whats so great about this site. I’ve started the last week this new thing where m-f I only eat 1 candy bar (Chocolate to me is like what coffee is to most people no joke) 1 herseys bar is 220 calories and I always have the extra cals if I manage properly. I look forward to it all day os it keeps me in check from my sugar.
I was having head aches like crazy for awhile then I started drinking more water and watering down the things I drink liek juice and tea (if you start with just a little watered down then work your way to where eventually you will just need a little tea and a lot of water) the water and take a good multi with iron took care of my head aches.
A C complex vitamin will help with the fatigue if its lack of nutrition. I would also try St. John Warts which is a natural mood enhancer (its all natural people been taking it forever) it gives more energy and helps with any possible mild depression you may be experiencing without even knowing it (I was and it HELPED A LOT)
are you drinking enough water? for the headaches that helps. My dr told me NO caffeine either. NONE… it took about a month for my headaches to go away.. it worked though.
good luck. I know it is hard but keep your goal in mind. make lists and post them all over. little motivational quotes make a schedule etc.. anything to keep you on track.. we will be here to help you and motivate you
And blog here regularly. let us support you. I could not have come this far without the support. We know you can do it, beleive it.
Just a quick not about ST Johns Wart- Its awesome awesome stuff, just be sure to not take it if you are on prescribed antidepressants. But it is great if you are not.
Thanks so much for your honesty. I am a food addict and I have to come to terms with it. As someone with the history of bulimia I have to say it out loud or I succumb to the lie that is the disorder. I really needed to read this tonight.
Well my dear Joy - so glad to get a blog from you. You are doing alot with school and all. I love the realness of your blog. Now, it’s time to do it because you CAN DO IT!! I Know you can! LOVE YA!
Hang in there, you can do it. Think of something to look forward to and make a list. Don’t put being skinny on top, but benefits you will get.
I know you’ve been struggling for the last few months with trying to eat healthy, and exercise. I’m glad you came to the realization that if you just DO IT! then you will feel better. Good luck on your weight loss journey!
Joy…I know you can do it. I have been your buddy for a long time now. I have seen you kick weight loss butt..make yourself a priority