Joy’s Weight Loss Journey

I’m having a hard time right now trying to focus. There’s so much I need to be doing and it is a bit overwhelming. Basically, I’m needing to take a step back and re-focus in all aspects of my life.

I want to focus on school, I want to focus on me.  In that, of course, I need to focus on my home life, my husband.  Really, I don’t think it will be hard seeing as he is part of me, and I genuinely feel that.   Our biggest problem is communication (as it usually is with any couple).  Last night I had a dream my hubby left me because he didn’t like that I’d “changed”  What, I mean, really? He got to know me for who I am internally and not externally so there are some issues with how I act.  I’m very much an introvert and I want to be an extrovert, how strange is that? Anyways.. We get irritated with each other quickly, since we both have little patience.  I’m going to work on this, as well as trying to develop more of a written budget, and trying to convince him that we need to write it down and watch what’s being spent where (any tips on how to get him to agree on this, anyone? J).  Money is definitely getting tight with school, and I’m having to cut down on work.  Food is another big issue, since I’m away from home so much and our schedules don’t coincide well at all.  This means I’m probably going to have to take one day where I cook a lot of food for the whole week, not a big deal, just need to develop a routine.   Advice on cheap meals, diverse for a picky eater?

However, we then get into taking lunches, etc.  I’ve an issue with food during the day: I’ve no fridge, so I’ve to carry it with me from about 8 AM until when I eat around 12 or so.  I do have access to a microwave.  I’m thinking, canned soups? Not sure.  I hate having a lukewarm salad or sandwich.  Any advice here would be great as well.   

This unfortunately means focusing less on other areas of my life, like BS and work.  You all know I love and admire all of my buddies here, and I’m always going to be a member here, but my role is going to have to subside.  I’ve always been a heartbreaker and I hate to back away from it, but I’m really not contributing now and I feel it isn’t as beneficial as it could be for me, and something somewhere else could take more from the time I give to the team.  So, I’m going to back away for a while.  I wish you all the best but I don’t think the team is where I need to be right now.  If I’m going to be focusing more on me as an individual, that definitely isn’t a good team attitude.  Maybe once I’ve worked on other areas I’ll be able to come back, but right now I’m just trying to do too much at once.

I will remain in The Quest for Onederland and the Christmas Challenge… but I believe that’s all.  Those are fairly “low maintenance” If you will.  I hate to be doing this but, I do have to keep myself in the spotlight for a while if I wish to have any kind of success in the near future, school and otherwise. 

I’ll still be here on a regular basis, I’ll still be reading the forums, just not 5-6 x a day like before.. about half as much.  I know I probably need a lot of you now more than ever before, aswell, so again I’ll try to actually focus my buddyslim visits on strengthening my buddyslim ties.

I hope you all understand and I thank you for being there for me.