Joy’s Weight Loss Journey

As many (if not all) of you know, my brother passed away on the 22nd of March.  This has caused some mixed emotions for me.  One thing it definitely did though, was remind me that I absolutely need to take care of my body.. he was only 34.  NO ONE should have to end their life at 34!!!! **sigh** It’s funny the things you don’t reflect upon until it’s too late.  Looking at the pictures with my mother we were commenting on how much he loved the little kids (nieces and nephews) and you don’t think of it.. until then, how much he probably wanted to have kids, and he couldn’t.  You know the face value of his handicap but you don’t think deeper to the more emotional pains.. until it’s too late.  Nor do you think of how optimistic he always was, until you can’t enjoy it anymore..a lot of mixed up thoughts going on with me and definitely regret.  I had wanted to go visit him during my spring break with my mom and show him the wedding pictures (he wasn’t able to go since he was sick).. it’s just rotten. For the most part I’m pretty stable. I have moments where I get very emotional, but they pass.

So, life has been incredibly crazy.  BuddySlim wise, I think I’m back up to around 223 lbs– I didn’t even get on the scale today! I’ll see what it says tonight and go from there.  I think I’m going to start weighing in Wednesdays because that’s always my highest weight day (due to pizza night Tuesdays) so hopefully that will motivate me to stay away!!Salad and meatballs…that’s the way to go!..

I was doing the math and there’s 118 days until hubby and mine’s wedding anniversary.  That’s a littleover 16 weeks — 4 months.  So, I think I’m going to start busting butt to try to get to Onederland (at least) by then.  I could quite easily (and healthily) lose 30-40 lbs by then.. (190 or even 180 lbs! WOW!)  So, here it is: Day 0/112 ; Week 0/16…Starting tomorrow !

Morning all,

Thank you all for my comments on my blog yesterday. I really appreciate all your feedback and have decided although I might say something to my mom (we’ve always talked about diets and such), my dad is another story.

Yesterday went well aside from the latte and 2 pieces of lasagna, oops! I was only going to eat one, then have a salad too but by the time it was finished I was STARVING. So that killed that.

So I’ve been all gung-ho this week about dieting (again). At least I’m finally getting some steam back, right? But a little big too enthusiastic maybe. I’m sorry to those I’ve offended :(. I feel like bowing out again but I won’t, I’m stuck here, for better or worse :p I guess that’s the way the cookie crumbles.

On a little different note, I’ve been trying to eat more protein and less carbs. My stomach was hurting yesterday, could it be from all the protein?? Hmmm..

So, I’m going home in 9 days!! (woohooo!!!!!!!)

That being said.. I’d like to have a talk with my parents about them getting healthy…. do you think this is my place, it’s okay to say something to them? Think Shanon from TBL– I’m really worried about how much longer they’ll be around.

My mom is now 54 and my dad is 48.  I’m really really terrified they won’t be around to see my kids.  My dad’s dad died in his early 50’s.  My mom’s mom  passed away in her 80’s but she was immensely lucky to have been in the condition she was at that age.

My parents are both overwight smokers.  On top of that, my dad is a severe alcoholic — which gives my mom stress issues.  I’d love to see them work at getting healthier– eating better, going on walks… working to quit smoking and stop drinking.  But I’m not sure how to approach them about this, and I don’t want to sour my visit.

What do you all think?