Joy’s Weight Loss Journey

Sorry I’ve been MIA lately!  Life has just been soooo crazy!!!!!!!!

I’m back and pumped! I’m revived; I’m not going to let my old self win this time!

Thank you all for your support!!  I wouldn’t have made it this far without my buddies!

I’ve been wondering if I should quit WW (Yes already, but the points just aren’t for me!!!) and spend the money on curves….but then I think I’ll never want to drive over there.. BUT now that I have my car all to myself (I was sharing with my dad because his winter vehicle is out of commission) I might.. and I’m more committed now than I was the last time? But it would be weird to go back, after canceling the contract… =S

WW meetings are nice, but I don’t feel like they’re worth what they cost to me.  For some people I’m sure it is but… eh. I’m confused I suppose.

My biggest problem is the one I can’t seem to figure out!

I always, ALWAYS am STARVING after getting home at 3 PM.  And when I work, it’s bad because I’ve food right infront of me!! (I work in a deli for those who don’t know)

So, does anyone have any advice as to subside this hunger until 5/6 oclock when I eat dinner?? Snacks, or whatever to make me feel full??

I’m hitting restart! I’ve been slacking.  I haven’t gained, but I’m not really losing.

So here I go! I’m going to refreshwhat I’m doing.  Starting tomorrow, counting WW points like a fieeend, not letting dinner get the bst of me!

Today:

1 banana

1 smooothie (Tropicana fruit)

1 grande skinny latte (about 130 calories)

Some chocolate, whoops!

Chicken with rice and veggies for dinner aaaannnddd

fruit snacks as a dessert/treat

no real exercise…sigh. This is going to be a hard week! But if I can get through today and tomorrow I’ll be okay!

I’m considering doing a challenge w/ my two bridesmaids. They both want to lose weight too, lol

One is the same size as me pretty much and the other, my sister, is smaller…. but a lot larger than she used to be since she had a baby! (Such is life)

Not sure how it would go.  They’re both busy with tiny children but, it’s worth a shot eh?

I want people to not stare at me.
I want to not be considered the fat girl
I want to not be afraid of cameras
I want to look good when I get married! (My maid of honor is now trying to lose weight too! LOL)
I want to wear a swim suit and not try to hide as soon as I get out of the water.

I want it to not be an epic battle every time I shave my legs! (okay so it’s not epic, but it’s still a pain in the ass!)
I want to be able to go shopping in normal clothing stores and try on NORMAL clothes and wear the awesome outfits I pick out for my skinny friends!!!!
I want to not crave bad foods.
I want to die old.
I want to die healthy for an old person!
I want to beat diabetes.
I want my kids (when I have them) to be healthy, and never be the fat kid.
I want to be proud of myself, and know I took the initiative to make myself better.
I want to enjoy myself at Uni, not worry about things like I did in HS.

I want to not be the American sterotype.
I want to be a new me!