Joy’s Weight Loss Journey

Just saying hello since I’ve not posted in a while. I’m doing well, I think. I joined WW Tuesday night. Now I need to learn to track foods!!!! lol

I think I might reach my goal of a size 18 by April 1st. Not sure. We’ll see where I am come Monday! (If I don’t work??)

I’m feeling good about myself. It’s nice.

Two new resources I’ve recently come accross:

1. Dotti’s Weight Loss Zone
www.dwlz.com

Great resource for WW’s!! It has TONS of restaurants and point values for what they have!

It also has a chatroom, which is nice.

2. Sparkpeople.com

Jen actually gave this to me It has a lot of people youcan find similar to you in amount you want to lose, age, location, whatever.  I don’t like it anywhere near as much as here but it’s nice reading up on other people who also have PCOS like I do.

I’m sorry for being so melodramatic with my last post!!! It was quite silly of me.

A few updates:

1. I’m planning on joining WW. I’m doing fine on my own… but I want to do EVEN BETTER. I’m greedy! LOL

2. I’m getting cheerleaders at school! lol Two of my good friends are supporting me.

3. Less cravings. Chocolate barely even phases me now (although it is still a delicious Fiber One flavor!)

4. I’ve a knew long term goal — look stellar when I meet my fiance’s Grandparents!!!! (probably at thanksgiving? Or who knows, maybe this summer, all the more reason to work harder!)

5. My favorite pants don’t fit anymore! It’s bitter sweet, lol maybe I’ll get them altered.

6. I can’t wait to see my family on Easter! Woohoo!

Can’t think of anything else to say right now… Hope everyone is doing well! Goodnight all! It is a school night after all.. and I work the closing shift the next three nights. UGH.

I’m feeling rather down tonight…. Not losing anything this past week has upset me a bit. More than when I gained two weeks ago. So, I wanted to work harder this week.

My boyfriend and I went out. Stopped at Chick-fil-a… So, of course, I had to get something. UGH. I was going to get an ice cream cone, and I didn’t. I ended up getting chicken strips and fries. This was a 160 calorie versus 600 calorie choice. THAT drastic?! …Ugh. I am so incredibly disgusted with myself. I’ve never looked at myself and truly hated what I saw as badly as I did earlier today. It is just so….disgusting looking.

After eating I was terribly upset. I wasn’t talking, pulling my hair (not hard, just a nervous thing I do…..run my hands through it and pull on it a little at the roots.) And I was thinking… If I’m not careful, I’m going to end up with a psychological disorder (my friend nearly killed herself last year because she became anorexic)

My boyfriend asked what was wrong, and I told him “I shouldn’t have eaten that”

He got mad at me. I explained that I’m at such a high risk for so many things (specifically diabetes, since I’ve a disease from my paternal side that makes me more prone to it, and my maternal side has it…)

To which he said he knew, but that kind of behavior breeds eating disorders.

The same thing I thought. It’s nerve wrecking. At this moment in time I feel so afraid, and vulnerable.

I don’t want to be the fat girl anymore…

I just want to curl up to him and cry, but then I’m afraid he’ll get mad again.

I barely lost a pound this week. This is coming after a gain, then two pound loss, now barely one. So, I’m hitting it hard next week.

No more sweets (yesterday I was bad, I had some pie (it was pi day at school..) and a small McDonalds shake. But they one come around once a year, so that’s just an annual thing… Shamrock Shake! I hated doing both on the same day, but I doubt I’ll be at a McDonalds again (It was one inside a super walmart)

No more 100 calorie packs.

I want to try to exercise at least an hour every day. When I get home from school, and after dinner for half an hour each, preferably.

More salads. I don’t really eat salads…. but I think it would help.

Cooking my own dinners instead of eating what my parents fix, which is usually high in fat and calories. Agh… This will be a hard one!

WATER. WATER. WATER. I am getting better with this, but still… WATER.

I’m off to work… then probably doing some grocery shopping. Yikes! My poor checking account, LOL

/Wore a shirt today that I haven’t worn since BUYING it. Damn sizes not being standard! I had a sweatshirt over it, but it’s a start. My waist is getting flatter, good, because I know I had more inches around my waist than stomach, which is supposed to be very unhealthy.. I think I might start measuring inches? Does it help anyone?

Did well today.. Food and such was fine. Walked a mile and a quarter at the park with the dog. I think I killed her, lol, she’s 12 the poor dear.

Also did my work out video again. Really, anyone who likes dance, I love this video, and would highly recommend it!!

Trying to get some toning in too. Crunches, etc. So hard for me to do these, and I dunno why!!! Agh.

Water water water too..

Hopefully I’ll show some change this week!!

Sorry this post was a bit scatter brained.. just thinking about how today was…

Also…will someone tell me how to post pictures in bulletins? I can’t figure it out. LOL

Good day today (besides getting a B- on a test, UGH.)

=)

I went for a walk with the doggies and my Dad, which was very enjoyable.  Want to do so again tomorrow…

I also tried out my new work out video. I thoroughly enjoyed it!! It’s challenging to get the moves, but it’s FUN and you can feel it working…  (The FIRM: Cardio Dance Fusion)

Ate well.  I couldn’t even finish my lunch today, I was rather proud! No junk food at all today (sometimes I have 100 calories packs and such but they really aren’t good for you, lol)

Only mistake was an ACCIDENT. I had to buy a drink at school because my bottled water was frozen LOL and I accidentally bought the nondiet iced tea. YIKES! I only drank about a quarter of it so not too many calories or anything thankfully… Gave it away so I didn’t waste it.

No nap today; another one of my bad habits.  I went outside instead!

I’m super excited for it to get warmer.  I’m just itching to ride my bike….!!!!  My butt is going to be super sore but I don’t care! LOL (it always gets sore after my bike rides in the summer, which are usually about once every 3 weeks for a 2 mile trip both ways….)

I’m hoping to build up endurance to go hiking/backpacking with my fiance this summer in SC; the blue ridge mountains.   Oh, that would be so spectacular!!

Now, if I could just get my butt moving more! LOL

I did walk with the doggies like I said, about 25-30 minutes, and did the video for 15 minutes before my abs were screaming for me to stop… oh but I do love it. I’ve missed dance, and it’s nice to just do the little things again. (I was in colorguard, for anyone who knows what it is. )

Hi everyone!!!  Just an update I suppose, more for myself, but you’re welcome to read.

Food is still my worst enemy, but it’s by far much better than it used to be.  I’m eating healthier, and less than ever before, I think…. This week has been bad due to THREE birthdays. UGH!! Cake…sigh.

I’m fitting into old clothes better/again… looking at my long term goals.

GOALS

1. Size 18 by Aprl 1 (I’m already getting into some size 18s — damn womens sizes for being so irregular!)

2. Size 16 by May 1

3. Size 14 by June 1 for the ultimate goal of fitting into this beautiful dress
for graduation on June 5th!! (It’s a size 13/14…)

4. Be fit when I go to college and not have to deal with the same image as I did in HS

5. Feel confident when I graduate college and enter the work force into a cut-throat occupation (architecture)

6. Be able to have kids

7. Teach my kids healthy life styles so they’re never  “the fat kid” like my fiance and I were!

Whew!!! I’ll have to print these out……

Was a bit of a flop.  Sunday weigh in as not to happy to hear I gained a pound.  Lack of exercise, bad food choices, etc.  My fault, basically.

I was letting it get me down but I decided I can’t let that ruin my progress already, so I’m back on the horse! Did fairly well today.  My body gets screwed up.  During the week I’m used to eating at the same time every day; more specifically, eating lunch at 12:00.  However, on the weekends, due to my job I usually don’t eat lunch until 2-3 PM.  Therefore, Monday and sometimes Tuesday I get sooo hungry at the wrong times!! AGH!

I’m considering asking my boss if instead of having my first break be 15 minutes (at about 11-12 o’clock) I can just have my lunch then.  Not sure if my coworkers will like me screwing up their breaks though

Ah complications… lol!

Hopefully tomorrow my stomach will cooperate more!!!!